Transsexual reveals how he’s spent £200,000 in 12 years transforming himself into a real-life Barbie… thanks to a few rich boyfriends

By Daily Mail Reporter


What a doll: Nicole Sanders has gone under the knife countless times to achieve her look


A transsexual spent £200,000 in 12 years transforming himself from a fresh-faced boy into a real life Barbie doll.

Jason Torres, who now goes by the name Nicole Sanders, has had countless surgeries from nose jobs to breast implants and brow lifts in a quest to be like the iconic blonde.

Nicole even had controversial silicone injections in her buttocks, thighs and hips to create the feminine curves of Barbie and hide the boyish frame of her previous life.


Since the age of 18, Nicole has had five breast operations, four nose jobs, a brow lift, cheek implants, jaw surgery, chin implants, calf implants, filler injections in her lips, botox jabs and sexual reassignment surgery.

Nicole, 30, said: 'Growing up I was always playing with Barbie dolls and I just loved the way she looked. I also admired sexy women like Pamela Anderson and Carmen Electra and I knew deep down that I wanted to be like them.

'It's hard to say exactly how much I have spent on surgery but it's definitely in the region of £200,000. I have had pretty much everything done except liposuction - I've always been naturally skinny.

'I didn't want to be natural - I wanted to be glamorous and beautiful, just like Barbie.

'The surgeries cost me a lot, but thankfully I had some rich boyfriends who helped me out along the way.'

However, the road to Barbiedom was not a smooth one for Jason who, as a young boy growing up in New Jersey, suffered merciless bullying for being different.

Having always felt like a girl in a boy's body, Jason attempted suicide at the age of 16 and was only rescued when his mother came home and found him unconscious on the bathroom floor.

Nicole, who splits her time between New York and New Jersey, said: 'All through school I knew I was different. I only wanted to play with girls because I felt like I belonged with them, while the guys used to bully me, teasing me and calling me "gay" or "freak".

'One day I'd just had enough and I took 100 paracetamol pills. I was slumped on the floor and my mother screamed when she saw me lying there.

'I was taken to hospital and I stayed there for two months, having therapy and working through my issues. When I came out I knew that I wanted to change from a man to a woman.'

Problems at home meant Jason was still unable to tell his family of his desire to become a woman and at the age of 17 he found himself kicked out of the house.

After living on friends' sofas for a year, Jason moved to Manhattan where he found the New York club scene welcomed him with open arms and embraced his differences.

Working as a dancer in gay clubs, Jason met his first drag queens and was struck by how beautiful they were. It was at this point that he started his transformation into the stunning Nicole.

Transformation: Nicole says she has no plans for any more operations and his happy with the way she looks


She said: 'Eventually I was fired because I came into work with long, blonde hair extensions. They wanted pretty boys and I was turning into a pretty girl. So I started dancing in nightclubs instead.

'Then I was spotted by one of the top bookers for dancers in New York who thought I was gorgeous and my career just took off.'

However, it wasn't until Nicole's transformation was almost complete that she was properly reunited with her mother and two brothers.

Nicole said: 'My mother was really old-fashioned and when I first told her that I wanted to be a girl she wasn't supportive at all. She said, "No, you're a boy. I named you Jason. You will always be a boy".

'She just didn't get it and didn't want anything to do with me.

'Thankfully my grandmother had a gay friend and was a bit more open to things like that. I stayed in touch with her and when my transformation was almost complete, she reunited us. I stepped out of her bedroom one day and my mother was there.

'She hadn't seen me in two years and at first her reaction was "What have you done to yourself?" but now we have the best relationship ever.'

Nicole's obsession with looking like Barbie did take one sinister turn when she fell victim to infamous plastic surgeon Brad Jacobs. Jacobs was the subject of several high-profile lawsuits in the U.S. and allegedly botched dozens of surgeries, including those on Nicole's nose and breasts.

While Nicole was unable to sue Jacobs for malpractice when he was stripped of his licence amid accusations of drug-taking with his patients, she was able to correct his work with the help of a surgeon in LA.

Role models: Growing up, Nicole admired actress Pamela Anderson (left) and always wanted to look like a Barbie doll


It was this encounter that finally ended her surgery obsession.

Nicole said: 'I think it was the wake-up call that I needed. I haven't had anything done since the reconstructions.

'In a way, I'm glad I came to my senses or I wonder whether I would ever have stopped. I was completely addicted to surgery so God only knows what I might have ended up looking like.'

As a dancer and model, Nicole started performing under the name Nikki Exotika, eventually moving into singing and songwriting. Her high energy performances and online surgery tips have made Nicole a YouTube sensation and she is hoping to soon move into acting and TV work.

One of her earliest screen appearances was in the documentary Trantasia: Tears, Tiaras And Transsexuals, which showed Nicole and several other transsexuals taking part in the first ever World's Most Beautiful Transsexual Pageant.

Nicole said: 'Now I feel like I have finally been able to accept myself for who I am and I have surrounded myself with people who have accepted me.

'I'm not a boy, I'm not gay. I'm a transsexual.'


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